Where do we come up with the idea that we deserve all that God has blessed us with? So many times I wonder as I am truly grateful for the three healthy pregnancies I have had so far, but what about my sweet friends who have had some pretty tough days losing babies before they could hold them or holding them only for a short time? My children have been pretty healthy, but what about those mom’s in the hospital holding their babies all night who are fighting for their lives? I recently have dealt with someone who has expressed this idea because of their wealth and healthy children they have worked hard for it and deserve it. But I have to ask what about those who have had loss or poverty? Does God just love them less? are they less deserving? Obviously the idea is ridiculous. Most of the people I have witnessed go through some pretty tough roads in life are pictures of strength from the Lord. They have been used by Him to shout to the world of His goodness, even in tragedy. The problem with the idea that “I have worked for all I have and deserve it” is when things go wrong, then what? where do you turn? Some turn to their past and try to shift the blame on someone else, it was my mother’s fault for not hugging me enough or maybe my dad wasn’t around. It’s just never enough to blame shift, because it never fills that void.
There is no answer for why God chooses for some to struggle in certain areas and others not, I believe He gives us glimpses as to why, but we’ll never truly understand until we are with Him. Looking at the cross we can see God’s goodness no matter what we go through He has been there. He loves us ultimately and blesses us far beyond anything we deserve. I think we all know ourselves well enough if we are honest we don’t really deserve much. This world has created an “I deserve the best” mentality, but truly we are dust, the very air we breath is a gift from God. When we approach all of life that way, the little things don’t get to us as easily, and the big things are given to us through the loving hands of our Savior with a plan to use it to gain maximum glory.
As I sit up late thinking about and frustrated over this “I deserve better mentality” I am humbled to realize I have had the same attitude in a different way. If I am not careful I begin to take the amazing blessings I have been given for granted. Instead of looking at the things that seem to be so frustratingly out of my control as burdens, I can begin to see that ultimately He has our good in mind, and I am never in control anyway. So as disgusted as I am with those who use the gifts God has given them to shake their fist or use it to hurt others or even against God himself. I realize any pride even if it’s not that blatant is still pride. It is all His grace that we make it to another day. Any blessing we have is only by His amazing grace. If we all got what we deserved, what about Jesus? Didn’t He deserve better?