I always imagined this break back in the states being so much fun. But when you get back and hit the ground running you realize it doesn’t stop. There is No routine, no normal, Just a car and many miles to cover, people to see, meetings to make. And all the while you are shocked by this culture you thought you’d have no problem fitting into. Then you kind of settle thinking “once we do, life will go back to what it used to be before we left.” Couldn’t be more wrong! Life went on without you and now you don’t belong. There’s that stuff that everyone seems to know by osmosis but you. And you realize this place you thought was home, just isn’t.
When we were in a foreign country we wanted to live normally but there is always something giving you away as a foreigner. The language, the way you look, the way you act. You stand out as different. This became very frustrating, but as time passed The Lord began to show us, this is a gift.
You see when you don’t belong you can do one of two things hate it all or look to Jesus. I have to admit I’ve done my share of hating and it’s just not fun. But when you look to Jesus you realize this gift of not belonging keeps Him at the forefront. Keeps my mind on things above. Not on this world, I’m constantly reminded to see things from a spiritual point of view because we are strangers here, even in America.
So this gift that God has given us may not seem sweet but when it throws you to His feet to find grace and a place to belong, there is no sweeter gift.